My Friday Night Walk Of Shame

Yesterday was day 5 of my diet, and it started off well. By my lunchtime meal, I was already starting to have "fatty food withdrawal". That is no fun when you are on a diet like this, seriously! You start thinking of all the things you love to eat that you know you shouldn't be thinking of at that moment. It didn't help smelling the Enchiladas that my father-in law was eating, or the hot dogs I made Mike for lunch (he quit the diet after day 1 and said he'll do it on the next cycle...quitter!..haha Just Kidding! He doesn't even need it!); all while I was eating eggs and peanuts, ugh! That was at 1:30 pm, which meant my next "feast" should have been between 4 and 6 pm. I started getting hungry at around 3, but I wanted to wait till Mike got home to eat my "dinner" with him. He got home early, but that was because we had to get ready for my little sister's play. I didn't realize it until after we left at close to 6 that I hadn't eaten yet, and I was getting pretty hungry.
So we go to the play, and it ended at around 8ish. I don't like eating this late ( and it isn't really recommended to eat so late), but I was counting down till we got home to eat my eggs and sausage for meal 4. Oh wait! First we had to go to Wal-mart to get some things for the baby. So we made a stop at Wal-mart, and I just felt myself getting weaker and weaker by the aisle (not physically..I'm talking about with my discipline). By the time we got to the check-out aisle, I noticed the brand new "Peanut butter snickers squared" calling out to me, and right at that moment I decided "I think I'll just cut this cycle short..just this time!". Yes, I know. What a weak, little soul I was at that moment. I couldn't help it! I was soo hungry! I told Mike, and we got the Snickers! My father-in law, Dave, told me that after being on this diet for a bit, junk food and sweets would not be the same. I must say, he was so wrong! That Snickers was just as heavenly as ever, probably more because of the peanut buttery addition!
I kept having to justify my actions in my head, and out loud to Mike. One of the first things he said was "So all I have to do is starve you a little bit for you to break, huh". LOL. Yes, that was the culprit for my mini failure. You can't expect a starving belly to stand strong against the vicious temptations of the Wal-mart candy aisle at check-out, right?
If that were not enough, we proceeded to the local In-N-Out. Beautiful. And you know what? I did not regret it at all! I need a break! Its hard when you have 50 lbs to lose. That's a long time to not be able to eat your favorite foods, except for the 3 days of cheat days in between each cycle (but even then you don't really get at a chance at everything..at least I didn't!)
So long story short, I decided I needed a short break. Not from losing weight, but from this specific diet. I get bored with things very easily, and this was no different. Plus, I'm down 1 dress says from when I started, and people have commented on the obvious difference! So I know, it's been worth it, but it is now time to start something different until I can eat sausage and cottage cheese again without practically gagging (yes, that's how much I've been eating with this diet).
So what's the next step? Insanity! I have to put those discs to use! This time I am going to attempt at following their nutrition plan while doing so, for maximum results! I've seen so many people on the Insanity Facebook page show the differences they achieved in the 60-day cycle, and I know I can do it! My weight-loss so far will be my motivation; and if I plan on doing some modeling again come this fall, I need to be ready! Plus, a High School friend of mine is getting married in September, and I don't want to buy a large dress. More motivation!
I do plan on doing the diet again, but I needed a break. 3 cycles consecutively is my limit. I'm going to give something else a chance to contribute to my transformation. Therefore, I will be blogging about my journey through Insanity for the next 60-days (starting Monday.......evening.....it's Memorial day!).

Oh, by the way. I guess I can give more details about the diet I've been doing. I shouldn't be so selfish and keep this great secret to myself. You can go on their website at

www.fatloss4idiots.com

I recommend it to everyone. Just remember to bring your willpower game if you have to do it to lose A LOT of weight like I do! I did the walk of shame last night as I walked into my house, but my belly sure was thanking me for it!